I’m not going to tell you that it stops hurting. That one day you will wake up and your chest won’t feel tight anymore. That your legs won’t feel numb. That your stomach won’t flip. I’m not going to tell you that the tears will stop. That you’ll never have to fall asleep crying again. I’m not going to tell you that everything will go back to how it was. That life will be easy again. I’m not going to tell you that it is going to be okay. Because right now it’s not. It will never be okay. Your heart is broken. Is shattered. Has been abruptly ripped from your body. And that isn’t something a pill or a couple of tears or a hug or a doctor will ever be able to fix. I’m not going to tell you to give it time because there is no time in the world that could ever fix you. That could ever heal the pain you feel. I’m not going to tell you that you will never have to rest your hand over your chest again, just to insure your heart is still beating because you’re so used to not living you forget you’re alive. I’m not going to tell you that as fast as pain can start it can stop. Because that isn’t true. Grieving is a cycle.
What I am going to tell you is that LIFE GOES ON.
Whether you’re a part of it or not. The sun still rises, the clock still ticks, the birds still chirp. Nothing will stop for you. The days will pass whether you acknowledge them or not. It is okay to grieve. In fact it is important that you grieve. That you morn the loss or face the tragedy. That whatever you are going through, you accept it. You accept that it is reality and you face it. It is okay to be in pain. Pain is just a sign that there are things in life worth fighting for.
Make yourself one of them.
Fight for happiness. In the darkest of days look for the light. There may not be any and in that case. BE SAD. Cry. BE ANGRY. Emotions are okay. ITS OKAY NOT TO BE OKAY. But at the end of the day. Don’t forget that there is life waiting to be lived. A world waiting to be explored. Take a step in front of the ocean. Let the wind brush your face and the waves crash over your feet. Dig your back into the sand and stare at the horizon. This world is so big and we are just small figments of it but we are all needed in our own unique way. The world needs each and everyone of us. So live your precious life. It is going to hurt. It is going be unbearable at times. But you have to fight. Fight through the pain because it is worth it to reach the other side. It is worth it to break free from the clasp that made us so weak and smile again. Happiness never left you. You just decided not to let it in. DON’T BE AFRAID TO FEEL.
Next time you begin crying yourself to sleep. Take a step outside. Stare into the night sky and gaze upon the stars. We were all taught that today’s pain will seem really small in the future. But that isn’t always true. Someday, however, you’ll be able to go outside with a smile on your face and look up to the same sky with the same stars and say,
I MADE IT.
I was brave. I got through it and it has bettered me as a person. Let today’s pain shape you into warrior. Pain is powerful. But you are ALWAYS stronger. YOU can overcome anything. Let it hurt. But don’t forgot that tomorrow will always come and you don’t want to miss it.